blah blah blah blah fuck you.

crush crush crush crush crush crush

WANT WANT WANT

Why was I not born Blake Lively?

The seven things I hate about you

you're vain, your games, you're insecure. You love me, you like her. You make me laugh, you make me cry.. I don't know which side to buy. Your friends are jerks, when you act like them don't you know it hurts?


Frrriiigggggg

I'm exhausted, far behind, and i have ZERO patience. And boys will always be stupid, but I hope somethings comes out of this.

It's kind of annoying how hypocritical people can be.

backspace. backspace. backspace.

I fail, I'm so unimpressed right now.

There is no way in hell I should be going out tonight, but boys and alcohol are just so enticing. This week has been terribly long.

Honestly, I need to stop procrastinating... yet I'm going to the bar. I just need a break from the computer screen.

Why is my ipod in my car?

I wake up to find it's another
Four aspirin morning, and I dive in
I put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.
When did society decide that we had to change
And wash a t-shirt after every individual use:
If it's not dirty, I'm gonna wear it.
I take the stairs to the car
And there's fog on the windows.
I need caffeine in my blood stream,
I take caffeine in the blood stream.
I grip the wheel and all at once I realize:
My life has become a boring pop song
And everyone's singing along.

Why is this week crawling by? I don't even have anything to look forward to on the weekend. Waaah Waaah cry about it.

I hate when he'd say "You can't always get what you want?"

But why not? I've always gotten what I wanted.

I wish I had my bb so i could read text convos easier. I use the world COOL too often, and drunk texting stupid ex bfs is dumb, and I didn't mean what I said, but he didn't reply anyways so fuck him.

You are one of my best friends. I love you to the moon, and back. Twice.

No matter what, so don't forget that.

And when you begin to miss me, remember it was you who let me go.

You're haunting my dreams. Enough already. Love doesn't just stop, either you love me now, or you never did. Can you honestly say you're happier with out me? I don't know either way, I feel as if I just miss the routine, but if that was the case than why is it so hard to sleep, so hard to be awake? It's always been so easy for you to just leave me.

Was it worth it?

I guess I'll never know.

How do I get better once I've had the best?

There's no need to be sad about it, some friendships aren't meant to be forever. Sometimes you just need that person for a certain time in your life. I'm okay with that.

Don't tell me what to do with my son. Or what to give him, especiallu when it's drunk and you say the word and you know he knows what it means.

Fuck off already, mother. I wish I didn't have to be here.

1. I have too many clothes
2. Eli has too many clothes
3. Eli has more red clothes, than I have clothes.
4. I only clean when I'm stressed/ trying to be distracted. If I'm distracted I won't be sad. If I'm not sad, I'll get out of bed for more than just to drive Eli to daycare.
5. I'm trying to get motivated. It's hard, but I'm forcing myself to do homework/study... when I'm done cleaning. Clear workspace, Clear mind?
6. If anyone has a spare desk I could have.. i'd greatly appreciate that.
7. I wish someone wrote blogs about me
8. I want to disappear for a while, if you love me, come to Hamilton to hang out.

Clean my room when all else fails

I broke my nail.
And I have an almost clean room, next almost clean car.


Stay distracted. Maybe with a clean room/life it'll be easier to focus on school..
I hope at least.

I am so extremely unmotivated it's pathetic. I'm cold, my coffee is colder. I don't have any thoughts, any cares. I'd rather ignore my phone, most of the time no one talks to me anyways. Really, I'm swamped with work, I have so much to do, but so little care about it. When did I get so unmotivated? Such a blank slate. Maybe it's because my program will get me nowhere, and I have no clue what I want to do after.

I prefer music lately without words. Anyone recommend any good instrumental bands?

I want to help you, but you've got to say the words: I want to be cured.

I feel lost, like I don't even know who I am anymore.

You're such a fucking piece of shit, I don't care anymore. I just want to never see you again.
Blegghhhhhh

hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable

"Imagine a future moment in your life where all your dreams come true. You know, it's the greatest moment of your life and you get to experience it with one person. Who's standing next to you?"